hi mom

I have so much to tell you
but I just can't tell you just cus I'm dumb.

but I just want to let you know
I really appriciate that you born me
and you being painful cus of my future
and everything you do for me and for yourself
and our family.

thx for telling me that I can call you whenever
I'm gloomy and i didn't recognize
I could.
I could call you anytime , whenever i felt like
but I just couldn't.

I don't want you to worry for me

there's a thing that I can't ever say to you.
I'm afraid
I' m so scared of my future

and I'm so afraid how I am going to be like
when you and dad leave me alone
in here.
wat should i do when you are gone?
wat if I miss you so much
wat if I really need to talk to you
wat if I have something that's really exciting to tell you?

wat am i guna do when you are gone?

you told me the time goes so fast
so live positively while you and me are
together in this world as a mom and a daughter.
and it just breaks my heart so badly

there's a new mall in front of our house?
that sounds really fun and
I'm looking forward this summer when I'm guna be
with you.
u said if I'm gloomy then think of this summer
we are guna watch movie together and
have ice cream together
and you are such a funny mom so we
can laugh together

and those thoughts made me cry so badly
it makes me sadder
and i just can't do anything ..

please don't be gone..
I love you so much mom and dad.

and my little brother
I'm so proud of you
and I really believe that you are gonna do
really great job on everything you do.
I know it's hard like thousand time of death
but let's overcome this reality..
I love you so much my fantastic brother!